I do miss you

yes, I do miss you
when I vowed to never
do just that
thoughts of you creep up
at the oddest of times
leaving me comparing
wondering, beset with
numerous “what ifs”
“if only(s)”
your closeness
your leaving “bereft”
life has come to such
an impasse, am clueless
whether am alive
or dead; why can’t
I eat my cake
and have it too
life real has panned out
in half loaves
each half leaving
me wistful for what was
that I’d no longer wanted
greedily salivating for more
now I’ve eschewed
everything visceral
clinging to my one true
blue beloved eternal
that showers
abundantly come
dream time and/or
waking moments
never letting
me down
in current



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