Lend bit of time
Or allow freeze frame
of your face~ a la Medusa

I seek but a handful of moments
From ongoing life’s battle, to regroup
Spent forces

You are historically a villain
Ever facing acrimony at the ink-
Stained hands of lovers and poets

Let us prove them wrong
Defy laws of nature
Become law unto ourselves

Still self I say
Unto you, so that
I can be still too

image from google images

I weep for my unborn

For the deep longing

Preceding

My giddy

In the face-

Joy

Preceding

Your

Miscarriage

Then

The razor

Sharp plunge

Into an abyss

Of deep depression

The

Awful gaping

Wound

Still active

To this day

after you

Left

My Judas body’s

Rejection

Seemed like

Your rejection

Of me,

My baby

and

Our loss

Incalculable

Then began

An endless string

Of sleepless

Nights

when I wept

Rivers

aching

To hold

you in

My bereft arms

To rock you

To sleep

Singing

Sweet

Lullabies

Prepared

By me

Early on

But you left

And

then

You came

My baby

Peopling

My dreams

Nightly

Calling me “ma”

and when I opened

My arms wide

I found

You gone

punishing me

cruelly

The

Pain of your loss

Left a gaping crater

In my side

That will heal

Only when I am

Gone

You were the flesh

Of my flesh

and then

You became

ash

my dreams

dust

I still grieve

for you

my child

son/daughter

unborn

image is from internet only-disclaimer

backwards
forwards
you spell
… warmth
love
no matter
what

second innings, bring no expectations
in their wake- one just goes with the
flow and does whatever it takes

… he did not promise a rose garden
I did not expect a single rose bud
yet one mother’s day, decade ago

he got me the most wonderful
gift of all time -he got planted
whole garden of fresh blooms

to express his feelings
I realized -for real -actions
do speak louder than words

thank you

Lady Luck

Gingerly
Trepidation fraught
Stepped into life boat
For two~

Lady luck oared
Life’s boat
Rocking it constantly
To and fro

Then overturned

Lady luck changed mind
Trepidation fraught
Stepped into life boat
For two ~

Have learnt
To take lady luck’s
Tantrums in stride
With ennui

~

Curling self in inverted colon
Posture, I hugged a soft pillow
To chest luxuriating in laziness

At times such indulgences coupled
With other guilty trespasses
Make life more interesting

Forgetting daily life’s hurly burly
I let my glow from within
Spill all over my outsides

An inside out firefly aglow
Externally beaming internally
Finally at peace with everybody

Detachment is a process  not arrived
at easily, when it happens ripened fruit
severs self from life’s tree readily

~picture is from internet only

Currents currency
Nano seconds frequency
Touched in head, shocked
Dancing in ecstatic frenzy

Abandoned I was not
You stayed I strayed
Mindless, mindful
Now at peace, stay enfolded

~
Picture is from internet only

Worrying mental beads
I move in circles
Swaying constantly
On balls of my feet
Arms akimbo in grief

How could this happen
Why did heavens fall
On my forgetful head
Why did HE not chide as always
Insist on accompanying me

Worrying mental beads
Finger joints disjointed
In unhappy thoughts
Their red tips swollen
Worrying mental beads

*picture is from google images

This Place
Where I stand today

Happened by chance

Suddenly my heart

Is full

Needs cravings

Insecurities have

Taken the powder

Finally

Wordless

Defenseless

Vulnerable

Awash in color

Of happiness

Have nothing more to say

~

Unfettered
~

Barred
Sentenced
… To drudgery
of another’s
Choice, soul
Thrashed about
Heart fluttered
Begged
Respite

Days
And nights
haze of
dazed
shadowy
Bars
black
white

childhood
conditioning
came
to rescue
began
talking
to a thimble
sized statue

day in
day out
this one-sided
talk continued
until one day
the statue
answered
back~

~