Eclipsed Love

Unfathomed
heart’s landscapes
have
fathoms deep
pockets
covertly bearing
fragile wishes
kicking heels
unquenched
never
aborted
~
your carelessly flung words
cut sharp and clean as do
unerring knife of a sou chef
and my foolish heart
inside my fragile bookworm body
ached in pain and grief insecure
under twilight of hurtful barrages
clueless about true intent
of your catapulted words
as you never tired of telling me
I was your least favorite ….
my dark color and intractability
riled you so…
truth is…
I cared less about your ferocious
love ….
more about your veiled
oft repeated threats….
ergo constantly vigilant
light footed I stayed out of
the range of the gimlets
framing your bird of prey
eyes and I wondered
about the gentle loving
twosome who’d spawned
such a scary she devil
…
guess some are born
full of bile and venom
that’s sparingly and
surreptitiously
bug sprayed
on chosen few…
and how I
longed to be ordinary
self effacing…
out of spotlight
of your almond shaped
beautiful eyes
…
Now full of regret
I sigh at my childishness
and your inability to seek
love and attention without
resorting to lashing out. …alienating
further those who could’ve also truly
loved you as they did us….
you were so incredibly
well versed and talented
lovely in form
easy on eyes
with merely
one major flaw
your incontrollable
temper
instantly transforming
you into a shrew
needing herculean
anger management
…
Now
at the cusp
of my
waning life
I forgive you
also
seek
your forgiveness
attempting
to mend
my life’s fences
at fag end
prior
to
Finale’s
flourish
…

sudden qualms

watching
unfair
weather
forecasting
flurries
today
heart longs
even lub a dubbing ….
days chugging
evenly
palms cupping
softly cradling
not wringing
and
I wonder
about my
customary
missing in action
sunny side
..

reworked : Hodgepodge

nocturnal

Day delivered
Lesions throb
Night’s skin

bookending promises

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